Keep Dreaming. Life is Tough.

"I do not cry because I am weak, I cry because I have been strong for to long." I love that quote because it is totally true. There is a reason for my sadness though I keep it to myself....for if I tell anyone, it will ruin the one who ruined me. She has done this before and you could tell it burnt a hole. You would think she would have learned. She has gotten herself in a bit of a tough situation and I do not know how to help her. She doesn't listen to anyone and she has been really rude to me. She carries on like she has done nothing wrong and I do too. I try to just ignore the fact that it happened but it seems to pop up in my head no matter what I do. Why couldn't she have just come up and talked to me about it? Why can't she talk to me about it now? So many questions and so little answers. I have to keep my held high and I have to keep trying to move on. There are always going to be struggles in life and I need to wrap that around my brain more. The world doesn't revolve around me and it is going to be tough. Nothing good ever comes easy, it will always be an uphill battle; but I will get there.

Follow That Man!

A cabby bellies up to the bar at Carmen’s and spills his guts to his amigos on a daily basis. That’s me and tonight I have a story to tell, a new experience.
So I pick up this little girl, 13 years max, at the library and she gets in my cab. Air-conditioning broken, I am sweating raindrops. It’s 110 degrees out and all I can think about is slugging down an ice cold one. I am counting down in my head the amount of time before I arrive at the bar.
The girl, she had to be new to town. No one carries a sweater in the daytime here and she is wearing long pants and Uggs. I don’t recognize her face and so I figure she will have me drop her off at her grandma’s or somewhere close in.
“Where to, Miss?”
“You see that Mexican restaurant across the street? In about five minutes, a man is going to come out of that restaurant, and I want you to follow him.” Her eyes were boring a hole in my neck.
“Sure, right, seriously, where to?”
“I am serious, Mister, please believe me. I need you to follow him”, her voice breaking like ice cracking and tears were forming in her eyes.
I meet her eyes in the rearview and they spell heartbreak.
“Okay, okay I will do this for you if you tell me why.” Every nerve in my body was turning to mush. I never could stand to see a woman cry, let alone a child.
The words came slowly as she told me “The man I want you to follow is my father. He has an appointment to meet a man and to kill him. I was hiding on the floor of the back seat of my father’s car to get down here. I was just at the library looking up this medication that when mixed with alcohol will work slowly to end this man’s life. For the sum of $50,000 and the bottle of medicine, which he is receiving right now at that restaurant from the man’s wife, my father will go to where she tells him and put this medicine in the man’s drink while he is not looking.”
“How do you know this?”, the sweat now coming for a different reason than the weather.
“Because I read the email from her to my father while I heard my dad and mom arguing. My dad needs the money for my baby brother’s operation. I have to stop him”. Desperation was written all over her face.
I see the guy exit the restaurant in the car she told me was his. We follow him a car length behind. We follow him to Carmen’s where he exits the car.
A cabby bellies up to the bar at Carmen’s and spills his guts to his amigos on a daily basis. That’s me and tonight I have the rest of a story to tell.

Not my creative story but I still thought it was pretty good! Enjoy:)

My Life = Embarrassing! :/

Yesterday, which I thought was going to be a lot sunnier than it really was ended up being super embarrassing. . .at least for me it was. So my good friend Paige and I went to work out at sugarhouse park. We ran around the park about three times and then we were just going to walk like two more times when we passed this group of guys that were so unbelievably hot! I mean like drop. dead. g o r g e o u s! and as they walked by, shirtless:) they all said hey and they were super nice! So after I finally pull out my gaze at them I turn to my friend right?? And she is completely hiding her face in her shirt and being totally embarrassing! So I asked her what the deal was. She said there was a ton of guys that go to my school in that group. All I could think of at that moment was danggg I should transfer to Skyline because they have much better eye candy than Brighton does! Little did we know that it was the Highland rugby team....the team that schools from all over are allowed to play on. Ya...lucky for us:) Sadly I didn't make the connection that "schools from all over" can mean they can be from Brighton too...so as I was day dreaming about them we continued to walk around the park. And then suddenly they were on the hill just below us and then as we walked around the curve we saw them running to the other side of the curve and then not only that but as we walked back to my car they some of them just happened to appear in the parking lot. So, a little creeped out by the fact we were getting stalked, but happy deep down inside I dared Paige to go get one of there numbers. And knowing Paige...she did it. She walked over into the group and picked this guy that was alright looking but there were definitely hotter players on the team. There was something about him that made me look extra long at him. At first I thought it was just because Paige was getting his number and it was all intense and stuff but then I decided I recognized him....when I finally realized what it was. I knew him, it was Soloway. The kid that goes to Brighton and was the coach for when we played the Powderpuff game! And he was staring at me the whole time Paige was asking for his number. I mean there was like at least 20 guys and she had to pick Solo! efff my life and he waved at me and I was still in shock at the fact that she picked Solo (not saying he is ugly in anyway...just that the chances were wayy off and there were other hot guys, maybe she didn't want to pick a guy from her school. Idk) so I didn't really acknowledge the wave until it was too late and things had just gotten wayyy to awkward for me to stand. So I walked away and just sat in the car until they finished their conversation. She came back in the car and the first thing she said was "We are working out here every Tuesday!!" I thought to myself like uhh you can...but there is no way I am ever coming back here. ohh and not only that whole incident but I ran into Brandon Miller at lunch on Monday....super awkward cause I still haven't given him the pictures from Morp! Whoops :/ so as the title states....My Life = Embarrassing!

I wish I was more creative at writing titles. . .

I have been told I need to update my blog again. I knew this would happen. . .the same thing happened with Facebook! I was way into it for like the first couple of weeks and now I am over it haha! I can never remember to get on and write new posts! haha but at the moment I am watch this weeks new pretty little liars! haha it is quite intense! So. . . .I r e a l l y do not know what to say. I am basically just writing this post so the coolest person in the whole world will get off my back about blogging. . . . ugh! Well anyways everyone is going up to my friend Cat's cabin up in eden this weekend and I bet it will be sooo much fun but I can't go and I am super upset about it :( I have a gymnastics meet on friday and they are going up friday right after school! but I think I am going to dye my hair this weekend! But idk because I just but a cute hair wrap in so I don't really want to take it out yet! Ooo! I dyed a strip of my hair with Kool Aid! hahaha it looks pretty sawed! I used purple so its actually kind of dark for me but it is still way cool! I love it! But if I do decide to dye my hair I can't decide if I should box dye it or get it professionally done! Well whatevs I am over this now haha and I am super tired.

Long time no talk:) WA

I realized it has been a while since I posted last. Hahaha so I can already tell this is going to be a very long post. . .sorry! Oh well! Anyways I still have to tell you about how I asked to WA! I asked a kid named Andrew. I had a bright pink poster that said "I'm not looking for kisses, I'm asking for hugs, Just a sparkling night with one of my buds!" And then there was a bunch of hershey hugs and hershey kisses everywhere with a rose bud and a bottle of sparkling apple cider! yum:) So that night night I mean he got to enjoy all those yummy candies and stuff and the night I got answered I got to clean up my room for like 5 hours! ugh.

He filled my room with shredded newspaper! It was e v e r y w h e r e. Not cool. But the window said "Sorry about the mess, but the answer is yes:)" So it was cute! So when wa came around it turned out to be really fun! He had a wrestling tournament during the day so he wasn't able to make it to the day activity but we made gingerbread houses. Mine turned out pretty legit....it even has an abominable snowman creepin on the roof! hahaha and rudolph is flying:)

But anyways so after the day activity we went to the dinner at Mimi's Cafe! It was so delicious! Haha and then we went to the dance which was a huge hit and it was way fun. Andrew was a real gentlemen and he opened all the doors for me and he pulled out my chair and he held me and I got to hold his elbow. . . .hehe it was fun! The after activity was kind of a fail because we were going to go to look at the lights at temple square but once we got there the lights turned off so we ended up just going to get hot chocolate and then we went to Jordan's house and watched a movie! I had a lot of fun and I'm glad it turned out so well! 

This is all of us at Katlin's house before dinner! :)

Just Friends...

I met this awesome kid named Josh! He is so shy and sweet. However, I really tried to make it work but nothing happened! No sparks flew no nothing. So I texted him today saying I think that we should just be friends and he understood and everything but I feel super bad. I kept waiting for the right time to tell him but it never came. What came was the realization that there is never going to be a right time to tell a person that you don't like them. If you tell them on a monday it ruins their week, if you tell them on friday it ruins their weekend. In the morning it will ruin their day but at night it will make them not be able to sleep. So I just had to do it. I feel awful about it especially because a little birdie told me that he really liked me....that made it even harder to tell him. And Thanksgiving is tomorrow! I hope I didn't ruin his holiday :( I think we could really pull off being good friends though! We share something that is really hard to explain and being friends is just what we do best! Anyways I am really excited for Thanksgiving! Food:) hahaha and I am going to St. Geezy with my bestie Katlin! We are meeting up with my other friends Cat and Annie too! It should be the ultimate blast! I am stoked! :)

MORP! I think yess:)

HAHAHAHAHA!! I think that last night was probably one of the greatest nights of my life! I had so much fun!! :) So the day started with me picking Brandon up at around noon and when I went to the door he basically just came right out and we left! We went to go carve pumpkins at Cat Rogers house. . . Mine and Brandon's pumpkin was by far the coolest. . .We did batman! I mean come on. .you can't get much better then that :) So anyway after the pumpkin carving we dropped him off at his house again to get ready for dinner and the dance. I told him to bring extra clothes and everything. He had two hours to get ready and when I went to pick him up he wasn't ready! So I got to meet his ENTIRE family and we had conversations for 18 minutes before brandon f i n a l l y came down! It really was not that big of a deal because his family is very cool and I had fun talking to them. We took pictures and all that jazz! So we head to Olive Garden for dinner. Dinner was probably one of the funniest parts of the night!!! Jonny was being so funny and he was literally acting like a retarded indian. So this is kind of hard to explain in writing and it was one of those you had to be there moments but anyways. . .Jonny had a brown long-haired wig on and he pulled his head band down to right above his eyebrows. The head band was so tight on his forehead that his veins just started to op out of his forehead and Brandon was like. . .bro you look like Mrs. Usher! And the whole group just cracks up! It was so funny and the waiter comes over and none of us could stop laughing except Jonny and Jonny just gave the waiter a stare down in this funny face and said I'm really sorry I don't know why they are laughing and the waiter looks at him and just laughs and says I DO! HAHAHA I thought I was going to die of laughter!! So we get to the dance and we just started free styling and just hanging out and dancing and stuff. It was loads of fun and there was one slow dance which was really cute and Brandon and I danced and everything. After the dance we headed over to the Haunted Forest. . .which is a haunted house. Of course, Brandon doesn't like haunted houses. But I mean come on I seriously doubt anyone does. The point is to be scared right?? So he was just being really funny and of course Sasha and Elliott ditched us so I was in the back with Brandon and I swear EVERY single scary person followed me and scared MEEE. . . nope didn't scare anyone else. Just me. Great. Haha but I still had a lot of fun! So on our way home we stopped and got hot chocolate and took Brandon home. After, we went to Gia's house and watched the movie Insidious which basically scared me to death! Hahaha and we made things pretty awkward for Sasha and Elliott but that is a story for a face to face conversation. Oh and Jonny kissed Gia on the cheek. .how cute:)

What a Relief!

My math test went a lot better then I thought it would! Fewf! Now I really have to worry about the history project that is due at the end of the trimester. Ughh. And it is a relief that we have a nice, long four-day weekend! My best friend Katlin got her wisdom teeth extracted today :( poor her. I feel so bad! But I did take the time to make her a cool card and I got her some ice cream as well as some chapstick, because I know how it is since I've been through it too! But in all honesty I am pretty excited to see her chipmunk face! hahaha :) I have to read huckleberry finn. . .but I do have the book on tape for some reason so I will probably end up using that! muahaha!

It's pretty legit! :)